two years ago...

Today I was frustrated with things so I was looking through my journal and was reminded that during spring quarter I wanted to have everything figured out, but I had faith that it would work out. Then looking back that the summer, I saw how my prayers were answered with a new friend entering in my life. This friend helped me stay strong by believing in me and the power that I had to be a better person. Even through my weaknesses he always made sure I knew my strengths and the worth that I had being a daughter of God. Well, I was briefly describing in my journal how my prayers were answered and I shifted it to what I was thankful for. I have parents and siblings that love me and care for me. I am going to school for an experience that will prepare me for life. I have some amazing friends who are close to me and I am so glad they came into my life. I have a body that is healthy and an ingenious device that helps keep me healthy.
Two years ago, I wouldn’t have said that. In fact, two years ago from today I was in the hospital feeling so tired I thought I was either going to die or explode. I was going through so many tests and procedures while I was still in shock about the dramatic news I had received about my body. I was sitting through so many lectures that were hitting me like a ton of bricks. Lectures about what had happened, how a part of me was dead. Lectures from super happy people excited to tell me about my *new* life to come and how it will never be the same again. I am so grateful to my family who, that day supported me from near and far. They gave me the support that I had never before that time knew I needed. That day seemed like an eternity. Those 4 days felt like they would never go away, but it did end and I was able to go home.
That first month was a struggle with meetings, doctor appointments of all kinds, education meetings, dietitian appointments- it seemed like it was a constant thing stirring in my life. It did eventually settle and now with the help and love of my mom, and the caring priesthood blessings from my dad- the constant reassurance that even though they didn’t fully understand they would always be behind me. The loving phone calls from my brothers and sisters were a great start to learn how to deliver all the explanations I would have to give to people I would come in contact that next year and the years to come.
I relied so much on my Savior. It was so hard to understand why it was this trial that had been allowed to hit me. Still, at times of frustration and resentment, I was able to look to Him for peace and comfort, then I felt the small push I needed form Him to keep going.

These two years have been an amazing learning experience. I used to not understand why this change had to occur in my life, but now I say that Heavenly Father blessed me with this challenge. I am constantly learning self control and how to start and keep a schedule. The relationship with my mother was deepened so much when I saw her go through everything with me, along my side. I developed a greater understanding of the atonement and the importance of the resurrection and having a perfect body again. I am grateful to Heavenly Father for everything I have and all the trials that I have been through to make me the person that I have become today.


“If you could see the woman God intended for you to become you would rise up and never be the same again”

The adventures of Amanda and Kim

Today, we built a fort, ok so that wasn’t the only thing, but it was a highlight. We started with watching mummy returns and then we had lunch. We went to the dollar store and bought a hammer, nails, a screwdriver, and a shower curtain! Heheh… Amanda just thought I said a shot gun… unfortunately…or maybe fortunately, they don’t sell shot guns at the dollar tree. (I’m beginning to think that it was a crazy idea for us to move in together) After we got home, I put together my vanity and put it the perfect spot in the bathroom. I love having a big bathroom! I organized my bathroom stuff, and then moved on hanging pictures. Amanda helped me put together a collage with my frames for above my bed… well when my bed gets here. As I was actually hanging them on the wall, Amanda started to build a fort with all the toilet paper rolls that had fallen out of the bag. After she had built a wall, she continued to build around my bed mattress with items that were in my room. The funniest thing about this, is when all the rolls fell out of the bag last night, I asked her what we were going to do with all this toilet paper and the first thing she said was “build a fort!” and then started throwing them at me. Back to building the fort…she finished by closing me in with my printer and a box of envelopes at the foot of my bed. She then pointed and laughed at me and the fact that I was “trapped”. Then we both collapsed on the floor (inside the fort) and started laughing hysterically at ourselves after she proclaimed “I can fit too!”.

Though it may not sound like it, we have gotten a lot of things completed the last two days…. Like what….wait a second, lemme think…. Nah! I’m just kidding, My closet is organized, and Amanda got all of her stuff moved out of the living room into her room, which means, the living room is almost clean and we can move all our furniture in there. Amanda turned a closet into a vanity. See, the bathroom by the girl’s rooms is really small and there is a closet for everything outside of it, so Amanda was thinking and she made that closet into a vanity so one can be doing makeup while the other is taking a shower. It’s quite clever, take a look…

Last night we had an awesome thunder storm. We even had hail for like 5 minutes. It was WiCKeD! (As Amanda says) Yesterday I got our utilities turned on, made copies for rob, unloaded my car, AND talked to Rich’s boss for an application. We also sanitized EVERYTHING, even the shower curtain rod… did you know it was silver… we didn’t when we walked in, then Amanda cleaned it.
Well, I need to get going so I can get some work done for Rob. I’ll talk to you later!