Bigger than Big Spider...

...IN MY ROOM!!!! I pulled up the one (1) pair of pants on my floor to put them away and all of a sudden a big spider ran out from under neath it... It was freaky. Erin and I captured it in a glass for Phil to look at it when we get home... Here are the pictures... It's bigger than a silver dollar!



It's "guynormous" as Callie put it.

My Room

I think somebody misses me...

Amanda sent me a bunch of post-it notes and i put them all over my room... just like she would do at home!

Rock Climbing

Linden, She's really cool. She was a great help when I was having a mental break down.

Me and Shana.

Shana made it before I did. I had fell a couple of times, and wanted to rest a little bit.

Me still climbing... this time I was working hard to make it!

Trent and Linden watching me.

That was such an awesome feeling, and a beautiful view!

Jason and Shana Climbing. Jason is creating a route.

I'm climbing the route that Jason just made.

That was such a fun route. So much easier the second time around

So amazing!

Doug leading the 9. It was cool to watch them lead the routes

Linden is such a stud!

This was an intense route... it made me tired just watching Jason and Linden climb it.

Feeling Misunderstood

I want to come home. Not now, but I want to come home sooner than I expected. I have this amazing opportunity to work at the summer Jazz camp. Something that I thought I never would be good for, at least right now, but Rob told me I would be perfect for the job. I want to give it a shot, see if I like it. also, I get $200 out of it. :-)

I know what I want, I think I've been around enough that I should be able to know what I want, and I have questioned it enough that I know that I have it.
I have a job at home. I have opportunities at Eastern. Opportunities that I wouldn't have anywhere else at this time in my life.

Yes, I want to come home because I miss Brian, but it's so much more than that. I miss Amanda, I miss feeling a purpose, I miss feeling needed for something that only I can do. I've been reading so many books this last month, and I know that this is the path for me- at least right now. Even more important, I know that Heavenly Father will tell me if I need to redirect that path, and right now He has clearly told me that I'm doing ok. This wonderful peace, i just want to keep it in my heart, but with so many sounds and voices going into my head, it's so hard. I don't want to let anybody down, especially my loved ones, but I've gotta be happy, truly happy.
I have loved it here, it has been great, but there's a time when you've got to stop playing and figure out what you really want and need, do it, and then go back to playing. This is my time to make my decisions.

I'm just tired of people looking down on me because I'm not choosing the life that they think I should have. I understand concern and love, but if someone loves you, shouldn't they think about your wants and goals?